i'm the girl you'll never be

no
matter
how
hard
you
try,

you
won't
ever
be
me,

not
even
close.

a wonderful person :)

I opened formspring this noon and I ran out of question to answer so I decided to ask myself a question.

No, it does not mean that I answer my own question; it means that I asked the computer to generate a question for me to answer.

One of the questions asked about “who is the best teacher I have ever had?”

After a few seconds I came up with an answer:

Miss Dila!

HERE’S MY STORY

When I was in the 3^rd grade my English score was so baaad that I need to join an English course

I live in BSD and I have several choices (like Eloquency, EF, LIA, etc.) but my mom told me to get into this ILP course.

It is located behind ITC BSD, which is close to my house.

So I studied there and I really learn lots of new things!

I made friends and we grow older.

Some of those friends were really close to me. Firli, for example.

One time when I was in upper elementary,

I have a class with some cool friends:

Fariz, Azizah, Me, Astrid, Adit, Dita, Nissa, Raka, and some others.

I really love those friends and I even have a crush on one of them ;)

A BIG, big crush

Hahaha

Anyway

One time when we pass a level we were assigned to a new class with a new teacher

It was Ms. Dila.

I really remember her, and we love her!

She was soooo close to us

She way young, lively, hilarious, fun, and she’s reaaaaally beautiful

She is the principal’s cousin or something (The principal at that time was Mr. Wiku Respati)

She has 6^th sense and she often shares her stories with us. I remember that one time when she told us about the elevator ghost which she ‘met’ when she went to Bali. It was terrifying!

She ‘s studying at UI, and she still is. (I think) she’s majoring in English Literature.

Oh, and I really remember her signature!

It was deelju

She said that because there were two Dilas at UI, her friends made a nickname for her and she was called deelju (as her last name is Hadju)

She can make identical signatures. I mean, the ones she wrote at home and at course was totally the same! All of us were impressed.

We didn’t even feel study-like atmosph

ere with her and her English was just so good and her pronunciation was awesome as she lived in foreign country for some times. I love her!

But unfortunately time flies and we finished the term.

The next term, she no longer teaches us. She doesn’t even teach at ILP again.

She continued her study, yada yada yada.

But fortunately, when I was taking TOEFL class at ILP (2008), we met again! She begin teaching again in ILP.

I want to say hi to her but I was shy and I’m not really sure that it was her, but I remember her face well and one time when I was leaving my class to go home, she entered that class and asked me if I were her student. I said yes and we said hi. It was the last time we said hi to each other because I no longer go to ILP because I have finished my study. But I’m glad she remembered me!

This noon when I was asked that best-teacher question and her image popped out in my mind, I felt that I really miss her; I miss all the time we had spent together. So, I search for her name at facebook.

Thanks for her easy-to-rememb

er signature I remember her full name: Dila Hadju.

I found her facebook and I added her.

I viewed her profile and I know she have a great life now.

And on the relationship status, believe it or not, I see that she’s in a relationship with Rayi Putra which is one of RAN’s personnel. I don’t think it’s an hoax, I believe in her :D

I miss the times we had spent together, all the times we tell stories to each other instead of just studying, the break time we spent talking to her in our classroom, the times when we talked about those boys in our class, the time when we think her drawing was funny, aaa <3

But unfortunately, life goes on. We can’t stop the time and we get older day by day. We learn from our mistakes and become more mature. We go to different places and we make new friends. Then we grow old with them, until it is time to walk away.

I know there’s still a loooooooooooooo

oooooong looong road in front of me that I have to pass

I will meet plenty wonderful peoples in my life so there’s nothing to be sad of!

I will make a lot of good memories with my new friends so there’s nothing to be regretted.

I just have to keep the pace, keep on walking.

Hello Miss Dila, and goodbye

Thanks for all the things you told me, all the memories we made together.

You may not remember me as clear as I remember you, but really I want to talk to you, even for one time only :D

I know you’ll be sooooooooo cool now! Ah! I’m envious of those children you teach now at ILP! It must have been so fun! Zzz

-_______-

ENVY ENVY ENVY ENVY hahaha miss you ;)

p.s.:

your impression lingers :DD

thanks for everything!

BIG BANG DOCUMENTARY young bae's episode (third)

a part that caught my heart:

a mountain is just a calm scenery, not a test, for those who don't dare to climb it.

oh! and a picture from bleach #TURN BACK THE PENDULUM credit to SleepyFans from onemanga.com for the translation

keep this in your mind, people :)) it might help you someday
GET A BREATH OF FRESH AIR WHEN YOU FAIL!!! :))

HAHAHA

i'm not THAT into you anw

to tell the truth, i also forgot your birthday.
i thought it was on the 10th of December and i didn't realize my mistake until my friend told me.

hahaha so yeah your friend is stalking me, i suppose? oh great. zzz -_____-

hahaha i'm impressed. stalking a stalker huh?
okay i get it. just stop smiling and grinning when you meet me, mr. a.

my plaaaaaaaaaaylist

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

dictation test

ok it's not really toefl anyway but whatever
my native speaker teacher made us do this dictation test and i still remember it until now hahaha
so yeah i have nothing ti do so i decided to post it here:
(ACTUALLY i have to do A LOT of things - believe me - but i am too lazy to think so i'll just do what i like :P)

Last week my teacher's cousin suddenly decided to come to Indonesia from Singapore. She had never been here before. My teacher met her at the International Airport and they flew to Jogjakarta (Yogyakarta, whatever) together. They found a nice hotel there (Ibis) and the next day they hired a taxi to get to Borobudur. My teacher's cousin loved it there and the highlight of her trip was when she rode an elephant for the first time. However, she got sunburned because it was really sunny, and she didn't really like Indonesian food. Now she is working back at Singapore and she will fly back to England next week.


hahaha it's true story though and if you want to copy paste this story don't worry you don't have to credit me ;P

respond

i don't post new posts because i'm happy with my real life, so yeah, deal with it ok, i may not post things as often as i should but i'm doing my best. thanks for all your understanding, bye, for now :)))

gue juga sibuuuuk

yesssssss gue sudah semester 2 dan ujian nasional gak lebih dari 80 hari lagi.
semua orang panik dan gue jadi kebawa suasana. hmm.

jadi mulai minggu - minggu belakangan ini gue tiap hari ada les 2 dan gue nyampe rumah lagi paling cepet jam 8 malem, kadang - kadang malah setengah 10 baru sampe rumah.

udah gitu keyanya guru - guru pada kagak ngertiin gitu dan malah ngasih ulangan bertumpukan uooogh.

gue sangat BAHAGIA minggu - minggu belakangan ini.

ohya kemaren gue ikut tes sanur dan pengumumannya tanggal 29,

terus tanggal 31 nanti gue mau ikut test gonzaga dan hasil testnya diumumin hari itu juga.

wish me luck ya guys.

oh ya gue punya tumblr sekarang http://theodoraenno.tumblr.com/
twitter juga ada, tapi twitter lebih banyak ke personal life gue hehehe
if you want to stalk me, then, follow me @ennobob hehehe
http://twitter.com/ennobob
kalo facebook cari aja nama gue kali yaaa

gue juga lagi terkontaminasi sama korea dan lagi suka sama BIG BANG
yey, tae yang <333

hahaha


padahal sebelumnya gue menajiskan gitu hahaha maaf ya gue plin-plan
makanya never say never
hehe


gue juga lagi suka banget sama http://www.youtube.com/user/kevjumba
nama aslinya kevin wu
jadi dia suka cerita tentang idup dia gitu hehe
lucu deh. pernah jadi most subscribed person in youtube loooh hehehhehe

hmmmm that's all for now, nanti gue update lagi yaaaaaa. doain! hahaha.

highlight of the things happening lately (4)

HAIAYAYAYAYAYAA
HOYAAAAAA
AHAAY
NEW POST!!!

HIGHLIGHT OF THE THINGS HAPPENING LATELY #4!!!!!!!!!

· >> Kenapa semua orang marah sama gue??
Apa sih salah gue?
Terus, apa gue salah kalo gue ga berubah?
Bukan karena gue gamau, tapi karena gue gatau apa yang mesti dirubah.
Aduh tolong ya kalo lo emang kesel ama gue ya ngomong lah baek baek jangan malah diem – dieman keya orang bego.
Gue punya kotak saran kok.
Gue menerima kritik saran pujian cercaan apa kek tapi gue ga trima kalo gue gatau apa – apa tapi tiba – tiba orang – orang yang paling gue sayang ngediemin gue.
I need you guys, and I hope you forgive me.

· >> My dad bought me a shih tzu. <3 ing it
It’s a girl, 2 y.o., tricolor, and she loves to eat and lick.
Yahaaa you should definitely come to my house to snuggle her!!

· >> I bought BARRY LIKUMAHUWA cd. <3 ing it
And I just found out that Barry will play @ FOSSIL (a senior high event)
I hope I could come even though I’m still in middle school!
And @ FOSSIL there will be Raditya Dika too.
OMG!
Can’t be missed!

· >> I want a Rubik’s cube!!! Could someone tell me where to buy it? I’ll give anything for a RUBIK’S CUBE!!!

· >> I am now working on a painting. It’s schoolwork and the theme is realist painting, so I draw two giant pandas. It’s quiet good if you ask me. Nyehehe. *narsis mode: ON always*

· >> List of films I want to watch:
o The Proposal
o G-Force (cute trailer. effing funny)
o BANDSLAM (Hudgens -__-)
o FD (jelek sih katanya tapii)
o Get Married 2
o Whisper
o The Hangover
o Land of the Lost
o Last Chance Harvey
o UP (yeah, I haven’t watched UP. not yet.)
o New Moon (just want to see my Tay half naked ^^. R-Patz mati aja zzz.)
o AND many more haha I actually forgot what else, but just so you know, there’s still a long list of films. nyahaha.

· >> My schedule is EMPTY. TOTALLY EMPTY for libur lebaran. Does someone want to take me out of my living hell? I will be suppa glad.

· >> Oh yeah, how could I forgot? After libur lebaran, there will be a mid sem test. Ah great. I hate school. Ahh I hope I will be dead by the end of the month.

· >> NAJISS temen gue ditembak tanggal 090909 jam 0909. Haaa. Waaw. Dan dia menolak. Okay that’s ‘great’. prihatin sama yang nembak nyeheehehe

· >> Kenapa orang suka ngepas ngepasin tanggal? Temen sekelas gue ada yang jadian jam 12 menit ke 34 detik ke 56 tanggal 07 bulan 08 tahun 09. Digabung jadi 123456789. NIAT BANJEET.

Ahh I had to go. I’m gonna go somewhere to buy bjk videos hahaha. Gbye all, I’ll update later.

REUNIAN EX - 8C

okeh jadi kemaren anak – anak ex-8c reunian.
ya ya ya gua tau belom juga setaun uda reunian haha ga mutu.
norak sih tapi keyanya reunian lagi ngetrend.
lagian emang kelas 8 dulu menurut gue pw banget.
menurut gue looh.
ahay.
(LAGI DEMEN NGOMONG AHAY NEEH. EKSOTIS GIMANA GITU. YA GA?)
hm.
sampe mana tadi?
oyah reunian .
rough plannya gini:
kamis 200809 kan libur tuh sekolah gua. judulnya sih libur awal puasa padahal puasa mulae sabtu. ha. lucu sangat. yah. pokoknya libur. nah gue marcia ella lia pergi ke iteceh buat belanja bahan bahan masakan untuk reunian itu. nah. kita ke kerpur, belanja belanja belanja bayar. doeeng. belom apa - apa udah abis 287.150 hoh hoh. sukur dibagi sama anak – anak lain yang dateng.
sabtu 220809 pulang sekolah kita ke rumah marcia. ada yang langsung, ada yang pulang dulu, apalagi yang cowo – cowo tuh pulang semua, kaga mau ikut masak maunya makan doang dasar.
gue juga pulang dulu sihh hehe.
pulang mandi berangkat lagi.
sampe sana, gue kira udah pada heboh masak – masak gitu. ternyata ya tuhaan malah foto – foto di kamar marcia. ckck.. typical..
about an half hour later, kita baru mulai nyiapin bahan – bahan masakannya.
ditaro di meja.

difoto.
hm, yeah.
tetep narsis jaya.
terus kita mulai masak di dapurnya marcia. leader kita: CHEF ELISA YANG MASUKIN DAGING DULU BARU NUMIS BAWAAAANG. DUH~.
karena chef leader kita aja ga beres apalagi bawahannya. apalagi gue. kerjaan gue cuma nanya, protes, komentar, ngefotoin temen – temen secara candid, dan nyomotin makanan.
makanan yang kita bikin adalah spaghetti dan macaroni skutel. gatau nulis skutel gimana. scuttle? schottel? keyanya schottel. ih bodo ah. kalo salah remind gue ya, dikomenin aja postnya.
resep macaroni schottel ala ex-8c:
macaroni dicuci, terus direbus, dicobain rame-rame untuk ngeliat udah lembut atau belom, tiriskan. kasih butter biar ga lengket, aduk jangan lupa.
ambil wajan, taro diatas api. kasih minyak / butter, trus bawang bombay di sauté (tumis hahaha lagi pengen sok bule neh) setelah baunya rada lumayan, masukin smokebeef yang udah dipotong dengan gaya bebas (soalnya yang motong 2 orang dan jadinya yang satu panjang – panjang yang satu kotak – kotak swt -______-) terus sauté smokebeef dan bawang sampe warnanya menyerupai kulit gue, angkat, dan taro di mangkok.
ambil wajan baru. wajan yang ukurannya rada gede, ya. awas ketuker ama muka temen. tarolah si wajan diatas kompor, nyalain apinyah, trus wajan tsb dituangin macaroni yang udah tertiriskan tadi, ditambah daging smokebeef dan bawang, ditambah susu uht full cream satu karton, ditambah keju, losta keju, ditambah garem dan merica, dan ditambah tepung (harusnya tepung terigu tapi kita lupa beli dan marcia ga punya jadi kita pake tepung sajiku yang harusnya buat goreng ayam itu hehhehe). secukupnya aja, dikira – kira, jangan sampe kekentelan dan jangan sampe terlalu cair. yang penting cobain aja terus, biar kalo ga enak ketauan jadi bisa ditambahin. oyah, masukinnya satu – satu dan dikit - dikit ya, sambil diaduk. jangan biadab.
terus setelah adonan menye – menye itu jadi, taro lah di piring kaca oval yang udah dkasi butter sebelumnya. usahain rata. mau pake aluminium foil bolehh, tapi kalo males, gausah pake. soalnya kita juga uda terlanjur nuang makaroninya ke piring kaca oval dan kita lupa pake alfoil tapi ternyata ga lengket loh. nah diatas macaroni itu dikasih butter, diolesin secara merata.
kocoklah 2 biji telur, (awas jangan ngocok biji yang laen. MUAHAHAHA. okeh gue disgusting.) terus olesin diatas macaroni yang udah diolesin butter tadi. yang rata yaa. terus diatas macaroni dikasih keju. jangan lupa kejunya quickmelt, jangan yang lain, jangan coba – coba. biar meleleh gitu maksudnya. soalnya kita ada yang pake keju cheddar biasa tapi ngga melting. sial yak. tapi enak.
terus masukkan ke oven, kalo ga ada oven (atau seperti kasus kita, kalo PIRING OVAL lo GA MUAT masuk ke oven,) pakailah microwave. tapi kalo pake microwave mesti ditongkrongin gitu. dianjurkan pake oven deh.
bakar!selesai?
potong potong dan sajikanlah dengan sambel botolan.
MAKARONI YANG KITA BIKIN EMANG PENAMPILANNYA AGAK GA MEYAKINKAN TAPIII
rasanya enak kok, sampe ada yang ga kebagian macaroni karena belom apa – apa udah abis hehe.
resep spaghettinya jangan tanya gue karena gue bukan kru bagian bikin spaghetti.
tapi bikin punchnya gue tau!!!
resep punch ala ex-8c:
ambil bowl gede. tuangin sprite 1liter, tambahin sirup markisa sampai agak orange pucet, cobain. kalo kemanisan tambahin air, kalo kurang manis tambahin sirup dikit aja. terus kasih nata de coco 2 pak sama kasih buah kalengan. aduk –aduk, kasih es batu, VOILA! OUR FRUIT PUNCH IS READY TO GO TO THE DINING TABLE!!
kita selesai masak, anak – anak cowo udah pada dateng. kita langsung berdoa (ngedoain KEVIN EMILIO yang ulang tahun ahay. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEV!) terus langsung serbu meja makan. sekiar 20 orang gitu yang dateng. macaroni langsung ludes, spaghetti abis juga akhirnya.
abis makan kita ngobrol – ngobrol, ada juga yang numpang mandi di tempat marcia, gak lama, entah siapa berinisiatif buat jalan – jalan keluar. ya kita semua jalan jalan lah sampe malem. SERU BANGEEET.
thanks buat seluruh orang yang sudah berpartisipasi dalam acara ini terutama marcia’s asisten rumah tangga yang nyuci – nyuci wajan – wajan ga perawan yang bekas kita pake buat masak.
thanks juga buat seluruh anak ex-8c baik yang bisa dateng maupun yang ga bisa dateng. yang ga dateng nyeselllll!!
lotsa thankyous, especially for:
1. AUDREY
2. BP
3. CELINE
4. CYNTHIA
5. DETHA
6. EDDY
7. ELISA
8. ELLA
9. JEFFREY
10. JONATHAN
11. KARINA
12. KEV
13. LEVIN
14. LIA
15. MAISYE
16. MARCIA
17. RISSA
18. SANTI
19. SHIRLEY
20. STELLA
21. DAN yang paling keren: GUE.
i hope our friendship lasts forever, and i hope i’ll never forget you guys.
WE DID GREAT yesterday.
LET’S DO IT AGAIN!
WOO – HOO.

TO ALL THOSE WHO THINK HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG

TO ALL THOSE WHO THINK HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG:

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.



P.S.:
Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in.
Please do your part to end it.

SOMEONE TO STALK:

SI BAIK DAN SI KEREN